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RiparianWaterbear

It's totally normal to feel nervous! I had surgery 11 days ago and even though I was certain that surgery was right for me I was so anxious right before surgery that I burst into tears when the surgeon came in. If you're having anxiety tomorrow, tell the surgeon and ask the anesthesiologist if there's something they can give you. It will really help. The other thing that helped me was thinking about all the things 6+ weeks from now that I'm looking forward to doing. If the next few steps are scary it helps to refocus your gaze on something further out. Or maybe there are some fun things you planned for recovery like face masks, or watching a marathon of your fav tv show, put your focus on those for a bit.


electric_bat

Thank you, this was reassuring to read. The anxiety was crazy and I can totally relate to crying in the hospital. Now that the surgery is actually done and I’m all tired I’m feeling a lot better about just chilling out and relaxing. Congrats on your surgery as well!


J_deBoer

Sending hugs! Anxiety is no joke! Make sure your surgical team knows you’re feeling anxious, and they may be able to give you some medication right away to take the edge off the wait. Don’t be afraid to bring a trinket or toy, or stuffed animal if you want. Wear clothes that are comfy and also make you feel good.


ancient-enby

Pre-surgery anxiety is so normal. I worked on surgery for about 2 years and was very sure I wanted it and, still, I considered just leaving the hospital right up until they wheeled me to the OR. I've had several surgeries before, so I knew what I was getting into, as far as anesthesia and recovery, and wasn't worried about those. But still. I will say that I let myself be more mentally prepared for the length of recovery time for this surgery than prior ones (hysterectomy, spinal fusion). I'm 2.5 weeks post op and not being able to do much is sucky. I had a radical reduction (I'm non-binary and that was the right choice for me) and it was weird seeing my new chest for the first few days. It felt like someone else's chest on my body. I didn't dislike it, I actually love it, it was just odd. I'm still getting used to it. One thing that helped me emotionally about losing part of my body I'd carried for so long, for this and the hysterectomy, was to write a letter to that body part, apologizing for anything in our relationship that was on me, forgiving it for anything that was on it (like dysphoria or exploding ovarian cysts), and expressing everything I needed to say so that I could say goodbye and go into surgery emotionally clean. Good luck tomorrow!


electric_bat

Hey, thank you for the reassurance & advice! I ended up writing a letter to my chest the night before and it really helped. The surgery itself went really well, definitely had a lot of anxiety in the hospital but it got easier as it was all sinking in. Wishing you & I both some good luck in the rest of our healing :-)


ancient-enby

I'm so glad it helped and that surgery went well! That's awesome. Happy healing. The first few days are the hardest.


scared1292

im having surgery july 19th too! its 1am where im staying right now so i really need to sleep, but good luck on your surgery!! hope everything goes well :D


electric_bat

hey same day! that’s wild! my surgery went great and i hope everything went well for you :-)


scared1292

my surgery went great too! havent had any issues, just some pain and discomfort! what kind did you get though? i got keyhole and he told me it only lasted 2 hours! also how are you feeling now, drinking and resting lots?


electric_bat

nice, congrats! I got double incision and it lasted about 4.5 hours. it’s tough to move around but i’ve been eating some good food and getting lots of rest


ElectricGuava69

Congrats! You’re gonna do great :) Totally normal to worry about all of those things! But I have a good feeling everything is gonna go perfectly


glutenfreenoddles

The good news is, and this is what helped me, but top surgery is very superficial. It helped me to know that I would be so much happier after surgery, and so much happier after I was healed. My post op depression with top surgery was almost nonexistent. With Hysto? Yeah it's been hard. It is much easier to know when you can do things with top surgery because you can see when your swelling is going down, and you can feel how easy it is to move your arms around and gauge your activity levels based off that. Preventing post op depression can be as simple as planning to take a walk every day, or seeing a friend (safely) every once in a while. Even if you just want to play video games or read a book, switch your location up every so often, it helps break up the monotony